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So I have been watching the reports on Michael Jackson and his use of propofol. How sad that he thought he needed drugs to be normal. He used proponal (a drug that is used for surgery) to sleep.

Too bad a doctor did insist he try some natural atletrantives. Like going swimming and relaxation techniques.

The media also interviewed his cook who was gushing about how he was into organic, healthy food. Too bad he didn’t follow the whole philosphy of treating your body naturally. There seems to be a disconnect in eating organic and using anesthetic propofol to fall a sleep. Read more here.

Interview with the chef here.


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I have a counseling session today. Three weeks ago I was supposed to write down what I have for self-esteem and happiness.

I think the whole reason I got into this depression and mental health fiasco is because I have low self-esteem. I was anxious and nervous and depressed. I went for help and the next thing you know I am on a roller coaster of prescription drugs…and ….read the beginning of my blog.

I really don’t want a second divorce, but I don’t want to live without sex. My sex life is pathetic. My husband has a low drive and he has hurt my feelings so much that I just can’t relax. I used to have a very high sex drive. He has rejected my sexual advances so many times…and now when he says he wants it…which is so far a few between, but when he says he does….I feel kind sick. He refuses to go for counseling for this issue. He has a counselor, but I don’t think he has brought up this issue

Well, this is supposed to be about me, what do I have to have.

  1. Someone who respects me
  2. food
  3. shelter
  4. health care
  5. alternative health care
  6. friends
  7. “social standing” or a place within the little group I respect….not the “blue bloods” or the “high class”.
  8. Enough money to cover my bills. Right now I don’t have that much. My biggest expensive are for a little efficiency apartment, my health insurance….yes, even if you are on Medicare you still have to purchase it, a supplemental policy and some prescription or supplements. This counseling session is $90.00 because Medicare doesn’t cover it.
  9. I was going to say sex…but heck, I lived with a low or nonexistent sex life for so long now, maybe I don’t. It’s more than just sex. I think the phsyscial touch is healing. I am not getting that special healing…sexual healing…like the song

So, what kinds of things do you need to be happy? If you are in a mental health system, have they helped you?

I went to a lady who studies energy. She said the chakra around my throat felt low or tight or whatever. She said that was the truth chakra…yes, I don’t let people know about my mental health history. And I don’t have the nerve to tell my husband that I am unhappy…well, heck..he knows I don’t live with him. But I don’t tell my friends and family that I am separated…..I do feel like I hide the real me. But you see, used to run around blabbing about myself to everyone.

I had to search far and wide to find this woman who will agree with my rejected of psych drugs.


I received the following information from Mindfreedom yesterday. And I did hear this on National    Public  Radio.  You may listen to that story here:  U.S. Seeks Senate Help On U.N. Disability Rules All Things Considered, July 24, 2009 ·

The US media top story tonight?

A war of words between the Cambridge police, a Harvard professor and

President Obama.

Distracted by the frenzy, much of the media missed how President Obama

ended his day:

Signing a global UN treaty to protect the human rights of people with

disabilities. Along with many others, MindFreedom played a role in

crafting the treaty inside the United Nations.

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Today is another day.

I had trouble sleeping last night. Currently I am not keeping this blog like I would like to. I want to be adding scientific information about alternative treatments.

Last night I was still awake at 1 a.m. so I took some supplements. I have not been taking my supplements like I should. So when I was still awake I took: Melatonin and GABA. Some people called GABA “nature’s Valium”.

I used to take those supplements every night. Sometimes in the form of Sleep Essentials which is sold by Swanson’s Vitamins.

My supplement routine was prescribed to me by an M.D. who is pretty much anti-psychiatry.

I am so glad I met him. I am doing so much better now. If you are taking psych meds and want to quit. DO NOT go of COLD TURKEY. You can get very, very sick.

I went to Weight Watchers and I had lost 1.8 pounds since last week. I did try to0. When I went out of town, I brought a bag and little cooler of my own food. I counted my points for about one-half the week.

Hey, I am watching Good Morning America and they are saying get rid of all your conveniences. Get rid of the garage door opener, the remote control, the electric can opener etc.

Anyway, now I am two-tenths of a pound overweight. ( Actually 2.2 pounds overweight) I had been at goal for months and months. I go to Weight Watchers ever week even though I don’t have to. But going keeps me at goal…or catches me when I get overweight. The ladies there are really nice and hadn’t been charging me even though I was weighing in slightly over-weight for the past few weeks. Last week the charged me…$12.00. Maybe that’s what I needed.

Anyway, this week’s challenge is to eat a fruit I have never eaten previously. Well, that will be hard because I tried to eat local AND organic. I don’t there is a fruit I haven’t eaten that is local. Hmmm…maybe dandelion greens?

I will go to the chiropractor again in a few minutes for a laser treatment on my foot.


I tried something new today, reflexology. It is a way of working with the body through the foot.

 A chart of the feet from Wikipedia

A chart of the feet from Wikipedia

I am not sure if it will help or not, but it is worth a try.

On Sunday my blood pressure was the lowest it has ever been. I visualized that I was in the most relaxing part of my yoga class. That seemed to reduced my blood pressure. Later the nurse took it again, while I talked about things that bugged me and it jumped 20 points on the upper number.

I was disgusted with myself for not going ot yoga anymore, but I was able to call up what I learned.

Well, today I tried to get some work done. I got a little distracted.

Last night I ate a Gardenburger on a tortilla. I really like them. I also had corn on the cob and and a fresh tomato.

Last weeks Weight Watcher challenge was to eat three different colors of fruits or vegetables each day.

This weeks challenge is to fill half your plate with fruits or vegetables.

Hmm, that assumes that you use a plate and don’t eat your food standing over the sink 😉

Well lets see, today I had oatmeal, a banana and a peanut butter sandwich. So far I havent’ used a plate. I have also eatedn snap peas out of a bag.

I haven’t gone yoga for a while.

I do want to go to an art opening tonight.

Time flies when you stick your head in the web.

Time flies when you stick your head in the web.

This morning I thought about posting that it was time to take a break from blogging. Yesterday I spent most of my time on the ‘net.  I don’t know if I was wasting time or if I actually got some work done.  I did get some stuff done, but I think if I had a boss he or she would be disgusted with my time management skills. About half of what I did was work-related.

Anyway, I got up this morning thinking I would check Gianna Kali’s blog and I see she has decided to rest from her blog.

I don’t know, I don’t really want to stop. I want to make posts about alternative treatments and good food, but lately my posts have been about my relationship with my husband.  I feel very tentative about that. I would be horrified if I knew my spouse blogged about his feelings for me or my personal issues.

I have a couple of cool, “fun” things I have been doing to help some physical problems I have, I just haven’t blogged about them. I want to do the research on them before posting.

I started this blog a little over a year ago and I feel like I have met some cool people along the way. Some of people I started with are not blogging as frequently anymore.

Anyway, I don’t think I will quit but I do need some serious time management to take effect.

One thing I haven’t posted about is that my blood pressure was NORMAL last Saturaday…yipee.


Well everyday I have something I could post, but I have been so busy.

Last week Weight Watchers give us a challenge: Everyday eat three colors on the rainbow from a fruit or a vegetable. Huh, I started out great guns, but I don’t know that I succeeded every single day. That’s really pathetic. I get so hungry that I eat a bowl of oatmeal or a banana. Not much color there.

I bought two baggies of snap peas and I have eaten half or them. I also bought baby carrots. I  have eaten half a tomato on spinach leaves.

Last week I was a little over 2 pound over my goal. And this week I didn’t try very hard to lose. In fact one day I over ate at two meals…but I did lose at weigh-in day. Eight tenths of a pound.

I have my support group tonight. One time they talked about “emotional eating”…but they push it (emotional eating) too…so it’s kinda crazy. People donate to this women’s shelter; things like candy bars, crackers, chocolate.  I think they encourage emotional eating. Once when the leader askrd everyone who had taken antidepressants to raise her hand, almost everyone did. I didn’t. Ha, they don’t know the half of it. Another time when I told woman about some of the problems I had, she said, “That’s a psychological disorder, you know.” Yeah, I know.

Hubby had a counseling session last night, I suppose I should phone him or meet him today to see how it went.

I have some other alternative health stuff I need to post too. Hopefully I get to it soon. I am trying to run a business and need to get at other stuff.

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